Love Song to Myself

You face me,

In your favorite cafe

Our toes touch

But the table’s miles long


You reach for me,

Only my flesh responds

Our egos dance

To a band no longer playing


It took me too long to see

All these signs in front of me

Bound by love only skin deep

But now the promises I’ll keep

are to my own

to my own

to my own heart


We sip your stories

We ate your needs

Sprawled on the table

We gorge until i feel sick

We exit in separate directions

The night air is my remedy

“Where did you go?” echoes within me

But this time, I’m asking me

It took me too long to see

All these signs in front of me

Bound by a love only skin deep

But now the promises I have to keep

are to my own

to my own

to my own heart

There is a tiny box

Inside my hand

locked but pounding

I look at you and contemplate the key….

Feels like Freedom

Lying on this cold stone

Next to you, but all alone

lips graze my cheekbone

My body tight, doesn’t feel right

But I hear my mouth say “alright”

Where is my fight or flight?

Oooooh oooooh

Oooooh oooooh

The taste of oblivion

Feels like freedom

Feels like freedom

Didn’t ever find my “no”

My insides hollowed

Scraped out by your ego

And now possessed by emptiness

Cause with me gone, it is easiest

To be the girl this world expects


Oooooh oooooh

Oooooh oooooh

The taste of oblivion

Only feels like

Feels like

Feels like freedom

Now I’m older, wiser

And have rejected that lie

That to stay alive

Meant to let my voice die

Oooooh oooooh

Oooooh oooooh

The taste of oblivion

Only feels like

Feels like

Feels like freedom


Take it Back

Summer days, salty air

Wind like freedom whipped through my hair

High with possibility, not a care

When you kissed my hand

And led me there..

Into your carnival of despair

I got lost, turned upside down

Finally found my ground

And I won’t

Give it away

Give it away

Give it away


When you left, the spell was dead

Anger laid down in grief’s bed

All the years wasted, the truth unsaid


All that misery

Watered the seeds

My emotions finally freed


I got lost, turned upside down

Finally found my ground

And I won’t

Give it away

Give it away

Give it away

I made love to my pain

I made love to my pain

I made love to my pain

To finally give birth

To my power...

And I won’t

Give it away

Give it away

Give it away


Ready

The eve of that party

anticipating 33

Around when Buddha under a tree

Found himself to be free

Gazing at the azure lake

Never felt much more awake

my mistakes and my heartaches

Finally turned to daybreak

This time I’m ready

Mind and heart steady

Let go of what’s heavy

I’ve paid my life’s levy

This time I’m ready

This time I’m ready

Lost, in my head

When despair and I had wed

My light was on its deathbed

Till the cure manifested

Now to no man I’ll cater

And although I’m no world savior

I am this song’s creator

And midwife to love’s labor

This time I’m ready

Mind and heart steady

Let go of what’s heavy

I’ve paid life’s levy

This time I’m ready

This time I’m ready